Presidential Tirade

I get the distinct impression that as a democratic "free" society we are taking a long walk off a short cliff. I have a hard time stomaching the idea that we should be allowing elected officials on either side of the fence to start gathering money during their "work" time. As president I understand the need to fund future campaigns but for fucks sake does it have to start up almost 2 years in advance and involve visiting extremely busy areas to attend benefit dinners. We are seeing an economic crisis that has not really been given proper boundaries (in the sense of when it really began and when it is projected to end) yet here he is campaigning for not only himself but for other people within his party.

Again I UNDERSTAND this is not unique to one party and believe that the playing ground needs to be leveled if it's not fair for both then neither can take advantage. Would just love to have a leader on one of the sides take a stand and refuse to do it. Come out and make it your message, I bet people would flock to you in droves regardless of political affiliations.

Back to the original point though, I find it funny that he is talking about being one of the working class and fighting for us. Then shows up on a Monday in one of the busiest cities in the union and expects everyone commuting to just deal with it. THAT's BULLSHIT, clear and simple. Come out on a weekend and depart in the wee hours of the morning, don't affect everyone around you and expect us to sit in traffic for an extra 3+ hours. Beyond that I pity my friends and family who have to travel in the shit storm on Monday and Tuesday... as the saying goes pack a lunch!

Tomorrow...

Life has this amazing endurance to itself that makes it literally feel like things never really reach an end or in some cases a beginning. For Dana and I tomorrow marks a unique case where we can actually say things "start". Tomorrow I will be introduced to my little boy or girl for the first time, Dana will be approximately 19 weeks along and they should be able to tell us the sex at that time.

I can't tell you how excited I am or how nervous I am because the emotions seem to be bleeding into each other seamlessly right now. From the moment she told me she was pregnant I held it with a certain level of disbelief. Even now... knowing how important tomorrow is I still feel like it is not real, as if I will wake up from this perfect surreal dream about to be swallowed by big foot or something similar.

As I was driving home from work it struck me how much this is going to be a learning experience for me. I acknowledge that an expert in child care... I am not. I do however feel like I was "meant" to be a Dad even if for the simple reason that I want to be the best I can for my wife as she means the world to me. Am I prepared to have something in my life that may very well equal the importance of Dana to me? Not in the slightest bit, but like it or not I am going to be everything I can to this little bundle of joy for as long as I can.

It's hard for me to find the words to say
To tell you how I feel today
To look you in your baby eyes
Look at you and feel surprised
Watch you grow and become strong
See you change for these months long
Listen to your heart beat steady
Hold your moms hands as we get ready
Holding back the tears of joy
Will you be a girl or boy?

Lame, annoying, sad, overtly cheesey... yes to all of the above and yet I can't stop feeling like I am on cloud nine. Tomorrow I get to meet the best thing that has ever come from me....

Gym Update – 2 months later

So on the 28th of August I wrote about 40 words saying I was hitting the gym again. 2 months roughly have passed and I am pretty happy with the results, I have lost probably 5 inches on my waste and close to 30 pounds at this point. I am frankly in the best cardio shape of my life and am really looking forward to see what the next 30 days brings me.

It’s crazy when I think about how much time I was spending just neglecting my body and my fitness. I had not even given it a second thought. I still have a long ways to go before I am where I want to be but this has been good progress and I am proud of myself for getting here.

Tragedy Strikes

It amazes me when we have tragedy strike and people have this knee jerk reaction of blaming someone for the incident instead of recognizing the situation in it’s entirety and seeing the loss that people have suffered.

Case in point is the following article about a game developer who was heading home with his pregnant wife (5 months along). A drunk and fucking ass of a driver was swerving and he had no choice but to put himself in the line of the other driver basically crushing himself so his wife had a chance to live with the baby. the reactions on the article have ranged from the man is a hero (my thought) to he was an idiot for swerving and deserved to die… seriously? Are you a fucking moron, how can people even say something like that?

http://kotaku.com/5631947/company-of-heroes-dev-gave-his-life-to-save-his-family

One of the commenter's on the site posted the following video which struck me as over the top but extremely sad, do people really drive like this over seas?

What the hell is wrong with people?

Just in an odd mood at this point, between being away from home for the next few nights for work and in turn being worried about my beautiful wife at home, I get a little dramatic.

 

On the plus side I have been hitting the gym regularly and I am seeing the results already. Putting on muscle down on weight and I feel great!